May 2013
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Having another rough night. I can hear my parents arguing downstairs. My little brother just ran upstairs from the basement and slammed his door shut. I can only hope I can sleep tonight.
Maybe I should try my hand at writing?
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Man, talk about really awful timing.
How is it this hard to find a roommate I won’t legitimately contemplate murdering?
April 2013
4 posts
I’m unsure of every single one of my emotions and thoughts as of late. Take nothing I say or have said in the last few weeks seriously. At minimum, with a grain of salt. I just need to drown all of my emotions in mint brownies.
(It’s not, like, I’m sad or anything? I’m just like, super unsure of everything now. GDI.)
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So me and my girlfriend aren’t a thing anymore. Yeah. That happened. Moving on.
Recently I’ve gained an incredibly massive hatred and fear towards objectification of women. Everything from cat calling to the entire pornography industry, as odd as it is to pick up out of the blue, I hate the idea of women only being noticed and used for their bodies. Part of it stems from my...
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Having another rough night. Missing my girlfriend a ton, as per the norm. Here’s to hoping it gets better tomorrow. :\
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Normally I’d save these for late at night when no one will bother reading them. But in this case I need to just get some things off my chest.
Today started out as a regular day, get up, shower, chat with my girlfriend a little. She’s been really having a hard time with the distance lately, and I wish I could help her. But, outside of that, get dressed, go to work, blah blah blah....
March 2013
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Having another low self esteem night. It might just be the irregular sleep pattern. It may be me missing my girlfriend more and more daily. Not sure.
I don’t mean to be cryptic with this. I just treat this as my journal more than anything else. This blog is really only meant to make sense to me.
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Xander needs to remind himself not to read Creepypastas late at night.
Goodnight everyone.
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March 27th, 2013
Call this a journal entry. Call it a vent and cry post. Whatever.
I haven’t had a night like this in a while. A very long while. I feel…useless? Expendable? Very easily replaced? And while there are some aspects of my life that I can’t complain about, I have a roof over my head, parents who tolerate me, a wonderful girlfriend, there are other things that I could really improve.
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Good mercy, what is it with girls mistaking my being nice to them as flirting? And what is it with them not getting the point that I have a girlfriend, and am not interested?
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So, I miss my girlfriend a lot and I kinda would do just about anything to be with her right now.
Not to be cheesy or anything.
February 2013
6 posts
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This adequately sums up my mood right about now.
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fightswithcar:
let it be known that my boyfriend just reblogged a cosmo sex tip
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cosmo sex tip #466
instead of moaning , inform him that Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.
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Insert uplifting and inspirational lyrics here.
Man, I need to get better at this.
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Insert depressing passive aggressive song lyrics here.
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January 2013
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snoozlebee:
dekutree:
acceptable pet names:
babe
baby
sweetie
cutie pie
darling
honey
unacceptable pet names:
boo boo sweetie oojy woojy poogy poo
cthulhu
sweet devil prince in the pale moon light
Leslie
floor
2% milk
Ella Fitzgerald
i think you have these mixed up
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I’m kind of in a really negative mood today. That’s not to imply that anythings actually gone wrong for the purpose of making me upset or mad, I’m just…bleh. I also really really miss my girlfriend, much more so than usual. And a lot’s been going on lately that makes me really want a hug from her right now.
It’s just, a few weeks ago, everything...
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I haven’t felt like this in a while. I just feel kinda…useless? Pathetic? Worthless? Not even just to have more words to belittle myself with, that’s legitimately just how I feel. I feel as though I pale in comparison to most all of my friends. I mean, yeah, I guess I’m slightly decent, but…nothing to warrant being an “amazing friend”. I’m...
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Mass Effect 2 day.
Got through nearly everyone’s loyalty mission except Jacks.
This can only go over well.
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December 2012
12 posts
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fightswithcar replied to your post: fightswithcar replied to your post
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fightswithcar replied to your post
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Oh, and my friends are going to process me through Mass Effect. Prepare yourselves for onslaughts of Mass Effect stuff.
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She comes back in a day. I can’t believe 100 days has already passed so quickly. I still wonder how I got so lucky sometimes. Read = All the time.
These next few weeks are gonna be a lot better on me. I’ve been looking forward to this for a very, very long time. While I may or may not have just spoiled the living daylights out of myself cause my parents didn’t get my...
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Starting to get more and more depressed as of late. Woke up depressed, continuing depressed, my voice is shot beyond belief. Not entirely sure what’s going on or why. Just hope I get better soon.
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I wonder far more often than I should how much, or what, I mean to my friends and family. I know I mean next to nothing to my family. My mom consistently harrangs me as to whether or not I’m gonna get back together with my ex girlfriend, and that I need to check on my grades and make sure I’m not failing anything. Whereas with my little brother, all I hear is praise and how...
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Not quite sure where to put this mood, but it sure ain’t on the positive side of the emotions spectrum.
A makeout sounds really good right about now.
I am SO. BORED. I legitimately don’t know the last time I was this bored. Everyone’s either offline, already out with friends, doesn’t wanna hang out with me, too far away, or some combination thereof. Or in a completely different state altogether.
Movies don’t sound interesting, video games even more so, I’m not hungry in the slightest, and everyone downstairs is...
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So my mom, after family stuff, spent about 10 minutes saying how proud she was of my little brother for being able to pass his math class. The last time she was so proud of him, she took him to dinner for passing 10th grade math. Which also happened to be the day I took state in not one, not two, but three categories, upon which I came home to an empty house.
I can’t remember the...
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Same suicidal depression-esque feeling from two nights ago. Cue opt-out.
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I shouldn’t be up so late, it doesn’t exactly do wonders for my mood. But it’s not like I actually have a choice today. Stupid insomnia. I become mainly depressed. I dwell on things that happened months, years ago that shouldn’t matter, but it still matters to me somehow.
I want to disappear. To make my life and the life of everyone else around me easier....
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November 2012
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I give up. I’m done.
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“Costco’s average pay, for example, is $17 an hour, 42 percent higher than its...”
– How Costco Became the Anti-Wal-Mart - New York Times (via alexdarke)
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By my nature, I am an irrational person. Everything from my jealousy to my expectations of others are irrational. So when I get upset, I’m not entirely sure if I’m making a bigger deal out of things than I should be, or if I’m legitimately upset.
As of late I feel incredibly abandoned, betrayed, and alone. And for no singular cause or reason, but more just a...
Forever blacklisting Jack Frost. I’m already terrified of that fandom. It’s Once-ler and Loki all over again.
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I pray to all that’s holy I didn’t pick up insomnia from my Madison feels.
Evidently, these sleepless nights are oftentimes stuck with horrific self esteem crashes. However, that usually means to imply that I’ll get over it with a decent amount of sleep. But for whatever reason, it’s simply getting worse. What’s worse, is I have no legitimate reason to be...
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Loneliness is the worst companion.
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Being lonely really sucks. Especially when the solution is a far ways away.
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I’ve got quite the mixture of emotions right now, and unfortunately every single one of them are negative. So lets go step by step here.
I’m frustrated beyond belief. I’m frustrated I work a job that I thought was great, and it ends up being hell. I’m frustrated that I had to fall for the girl 2,000 odd miles away, and end up causing infinitely more problems at...
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